hi!! im stuart "2d" pot, and this is my little diary thing for anyone to see. i update this at least once a week, but ill try and be consistent. ill use little dividers to help separate the entries to, if it helps yew! just click the image below, and you'll get to the entries! all dated out to, by the way. and if you wish to get out, click the image BESIDE it!! XP

02/16/2023, 2:32 am
first entry here! hi. let's start off with something simple, like a little introduction! as yew know, im 2d! and i like to do stuff. like draw, music, all that! and well, i kinda am all of that. despite it though, i always am trying my hardest to do things. even if i know i'll fail, yeah?i'll be honest with yew, this diary thing will probably have a lot of vents and stuff in it, i know my mind well, but that's all i know of.well, that concludes entry 1!! the rest of the entries will be a mess hereafter. thank yew for reading!02/17/2023, 4:34 PM.yew know, somefing i find crazy that i hadn't realized until now, is i haven't ever met any murdoc irls b4. let alone sourcemates. Used to have some, but then now i don't. i wonder how murdoc is doing. wonder if he cares about me, or hell, likes me. i doubt it, heheh. whats even more funny is he calls me a cherub. and, well, i have a non-human identity of an angel. and a vampire. in conclusion though, i just hope i have sourcemates at some point. russel, ace, del, noodle, murdoc... fuckin anyone!!!!02/26/2023 10:37 AM — a letter to murdoc :)Dearest Murdoc,Even though it was yesterday, I'm sorry for making you overwhelmed from what I said. Even though I've said it many times, I want to say again, I will always be there for you, even if I may not show it at times. Sure, some days like you, I have some feelings of both being sad and mad directly at you, but at the end of the day, it's usually gone. With that said, I want to say my feelings about you, because I find them very important to me.You aren't all bad! Your(You're???? I don't know how to spell well.) very smart, funny, caring and kind in your own way. I may find it hard to trust you, but I know you are trying, and that makes me very happy! Despite whatever bad you have done and put me through, I am very happy to stay by your side, and be not only your bandmate, but your friend.I remember this one time in source. Phase 6, as the fans say.(Well, me to, but that isn't the point.) I was having a bad panic attack that day, to loud, I think. Anyway, i remember you just.. came up to me, hugged me, and comforted me all the way through. You may not remember it, but that really meant a lot to me, and still does, so, thank you for that.It may take a bit to trust you, but I know you can do it, Murdoc. I believe in you. You just need to be strong, like you've always been. I mean, your Murdoc Faust Niccals! I know you can get to the top in the end, great leader!From your one and only cherub,Stuart. :)03/05/2023, 3:40 PMMudz has been the subject of a lot of my thoughts lately. I unno why. Lately when I've been feeling really sad, I get this image of him and me(when it was phase 3), and he's hugging me. And saying everything is going to be okay. And it makes me feel better. I'm not to sure why, but I'm pretty sure it's a source memory that means a lot to me but I cant remember it a lot. I mean, my head is all fuzzy anyway, but when is it not, yeah?I've also been feeling rather useless. Like I should kill myself. And that I'm a burden. Especially to Murdoc. Augest 15, 1997. I've been a useless fucking burden to him since that date. And it kind of shows.On the bright side, though, I haven't hurt myself in a while! Since December. I feel very proud of myself!! I may not be in s very good mindset right now(or. anytime for that matter), but I feel really happy I haven't done anything bad to myself!!!And another thing about Mudz—I've been mentioning him a lot lately and it shows, he's a big subject for me on my mind—, I keep having these sort of.. weird dreams with him. They might be source memories? Or just. Things? I don't know. Thing is, they seem so real. Like— the real where I am actually there and myself and I can see Murdoc and touch him, even if my sight isn't the best. It's so weird. I still have zero idea why!With that said though, that's probably all I have to share right now. I unno.